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Day 26- Your views on drugs and alcohol
Mmm… I get high on life… I’ve kinda thought of drugs and alcohol as an alternative part of my education. I do believe that aside from classes, housing, food, etc, tuition also pays for exposure to a certain environment or a certain culture. I had a professor who told me that he once went to a museum after visiting a coffee house in Amsterdam and was able to understand all of the modern art. All this gets more confusing with different laws in different countries, cultural traditions, family backgrounds, pharmaceutical usage, and stuff of that sort, so it really then becomes a question of costs and benefits for me. Most of the time, I would ask myself, “Is it stupid for me to do this?”, but then I would consider, “Making stupid choices might make me wiser in the long run, so it may be a necessary part of life, maybe like a social ritual”. I start asking myself stuff like, “What if I’m not fully taking advantage of my education?” and “How do I properly live my life to the fullest?”
I went out with the other kids to Brown several times at the start of the semester because I wanted to not be antisocial and to fit in and whatnot, but I found it really difficult to keep doing something I didn’t particularly enjoy, especially if there wasn’t any clear objective for me. I was usually very awkward and uncomfortable at Brown because I didn’t like to spend money on drinks and I get uncomfortable around large groups of people. The only time I had enough to feel comfortable was when my friends bought their own stuff. We got caught and we tried to get away with it by saying we were summoning ghosts. That was funny and stupid, but then I was super anxious for several weeks because I was afraid that I had been written up and my dad would find out about it and stop paying tuition. In the end, I just decided to try my hardest to spend any time not spent on eating, sleeping, or doing any of the many available restroom activities on schoolwork or work. My weekend nights consisted of doing homework in my room and phone talking with Autumn. If I was in the mood to splurge, I would buy myself something from East Side Pockets and eat for fun. If I was lucky, there would be someone to skype with afterward. I’m still not completely sure how I should be.
Day 25- Your favorite quote
“The truth is, everyone is going to hurt you. You just got to find the ones worth suffering for.”
— Bob Marley
